Tonight Will Be The Night

These are the days when you want out. The world is against you, making you feel useless. Unloved. Your mood crashes and rises until you prepare to give in and vomit your life into your hands. You hate how you feel, you hate everything. You want the medication, the magic pill that saves you from yourself. You can't explain this depression. You can't get rid of it and it won't go away on your own. FUCK YOU, WHY WON'T YOU DIE? The day is never ending and you can't do this any more. You can't live through. You want to curl up and forget everything. It is too hard. WHY WON'T YOU DIE? You are aching as though the pain could kill you. You love too much, too hard, too often. JUST DIE. WHY WON'T YOU. Die. Please. It hurts. You hurt so bad and there is no one there. You can't stand the pain. You can't make it go away. Please. WHY WON'T YOU DIE?